[Meggan] Meggan ran her hand over all the different fabrics at the stall until she found one she liked the feel of, then she set about trying to find it in the shade of red she wanted. "I love this place," she said over her shoulder, "so many lovely fabrics."
[Rahne] Rahne smiled and picked up some red silken material with dragons embroidered on it "Aye, tha ver' lovely ... I thin' m' Nana has a dressin' gown made outta this." She held it up.
[Rahne] She grinned over at Meggan "Tha run eariler 'twas fun ta, bein' a wolf's cool aye?" She asked in a quiter voice, not wanting to bring attention to them.
[Meggan] Meggan nodded, "Yeah, it was nice to be able to do that too. We'll have to do it again some time. I feel miles better for it." she smiled,
[Meggan] "How are you anyway? Haven't really spoken to you much since your birthday..."
[Rahne] Rahne nodded "Runnin' like tha's good fer clearin' ye head I've always foun'."
[Rahne] She hessitated at Meggan's second question " I'm ... i've been better."
[Meggan] Meggan stopped her rummaging and looked over, "What's the matter?" she tilted her head to one side, watching Rahne's face.
[Rahne] Rahne tapped her fingers on the roll of material irritably "It's jus' ... meh," bloodymyspacemoretroublethenitsbloodyworth "Jus' ... I dinnae thin' I'm ever gonna understan' people."
[Meggan] Wow, was that something she could relate to... "I know what you mean." she muttered bitterly, "Humans are far too unpredictable. I sometimes think I should just live in the woods and become a squirrel permanently.... I don't think Pietro would like it if I did that though..."
[Rahne] Rahne blinked at Meggan. Wow. "Tha's so true!" She waved her arms in the air "It's like ... I finally get thin's sorted wit' TJ an' then she finds out 'bout me an' Remy an' just blows up at me!"
[Rahne] "I mean, she finished wit' him months 'go an' she still thin's tha she has a hol' o'er him o' s'methin'? Tha he's nae 'llowed ta move on an' be wit' o'er people!"
[Rahne] "An' we ain't even had sex!" She took a deep breath and looked around to see several people giving her odd looks and one mother hurridly dragging her child away.
[Rahne] "Err ... sorry, dinnae mean ta ran' like tha ..." she shook her head "I swear wolves have it simpler."
[Meggan] Meggan gave Rahne a hug, "It's not fair, is it? Just when I finally think I have everything sorted out and I know where everything is and where I stand... Alex goes and leaves and now all of his friends hate me." she sighed, "Humans are stupid."
[Rahne] Rahne nodded "Human's are," she hugged Meggan back "I dinane blame ye fer tha' 'twas his disision ta leave, nae yers."
[Rahne] "It's sad tha he got hurt by it, bu' at tha en' of tha day, he 'twas tha one who left withou' a word." She smiled "How's Pietro doin' by tha way? Ain't seen him since he ran naked inta m' room?"
[Meggan] Meggan blinked, "He ran naked into your room?" well that was new, "Um... he's much better than he was... but this whole thing with Alex isn't helping. We both feel really guilty about it so it's kind of hard to feel happy that we're togother..."
[Rahne] Rahne nodded "Right after he woke up after tha whole thin' wit' Remy an' Jean-Paul ... he thought 'twas your room I thin'."
[Rahne] She patted Meggan on the shoulder "Ye shouldnae let it spoil ye happiness though," she said softly "Ye shoul' try an' enjoy ye time tagether, be happy, 'cos ye nae'er know ehn ye worl's gonna come crashin' down ..." she trailed off sadly.
[Meggan] Meggan gave Rahne a squeeze, "Hey, iy'll be alright. Vic'll be out of there after christmas, right? He was just unlucky with the anti-mutant bias." She smiled reassuringly, "and as for enjoying ourselves, we will when people stop giving us dirty looks for smiling..."
[Meggan] "Honestly, it's like they don't think we deserve to be even a little bit happy. We're worried too but we're trying to carry on...."
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[Rahne] Rahne huffed "Again wit' the 'humans are stupid'," she muttered somewhat bitterly and they moved on from the fabric stall and walked down the road.
[Rahne] "It's nae like makin' ye an Pietro feel bad is gonna brin' him back aye? An' if he really cared 'bout ye, i'm sure he wouldnae be wantin' people ta do this ta ye both." She stopped at a jewlery stall and looked at the rows of earings.
[Meggan] Meggan looked at all the sparkly earrings with Rahne, her inner magpie wanted them all, she shooed it away. "I know, but I wouldn't like to try and tell the others that. They're mad at me for taking so long to decide but that wasn't my fault... they just don't understand what it's like."
[Meggan] She picked up a pair of silver earings with red jewels hanging from stems like flowers, "What do you think?"
[Rahne] Rahne chewed her lip and played with the earings Remy had given her for her birthday "All I know is tha' I've been at this school fer almos' a year now an' I still dinnae understan' folk."
[Rahne] "An' tha the dinnae understan' me, I ... I was such a ... a chil' whne I firs' arrived, an' I've chnaged 'lot, grown ... bu' they still dinnae see it."
[Rahne] She bit her lip, remembering the patronising tone that had been in all of Lizzie's comments on myspace. She hadn't wanted to mention it since she was sure that the other girl hadn't meant too.
[Rahne] Her parents, her grand-mother knew that she'd grown up in the past year, why didn't everyone else? Vic and Remy were the only ones who didn't see her as a ch-
[Rahne] She cut off that train of though, it would do no one any good to start thinking like that. She just had to try and show people she was mature.
[Rahne] She fixed a smile on her face and looked at the earings Meggan was holding up "Ver' pretty ..." she noticed that the shop behind the stall was a piercing studio ... hmmm ....
[Meggan] Meggan grinned and paid for the earrings, it was about time she got a new pair. "What are you lookin' at?" Meggan followed her eyeline, "want to get something done?"
[Rahne] Rahne tapped the side of her nose "I've been wantin' ta get m' nose done fer ages ... Lizzie'd said she'd take m' bu' I nae'er got 'roun' ta askin' her ta ..."
[Rahne] Squaring her shoulders Rahne pulled out her purse "Wait here," she commended, walking through the door.
[Rahne] A few minutes later Rahne emerged, looking very pleased with herself and sporting a thin, silver ring through the right side of her nose. She beamed proudly at Meggan "I got him ta put a rin' in even though he's nae suppost ta!"
[Meggan] Meggan grinned, "Wow! That looks really good!" she gave Rahne a hug and inspected the piercing some more, "it suits you," she stated, "... I'm hungry, lets get food!" she grabbed Rahne's hand and dragged her off to a cafe.
[Rahne] Rahne giggled, she'd finally gotten it done and hadn't chickened out. At the cafe she ordered a tuna salad and sat down at a small table. She looked around the busy market place "I guess ye shieldin' lesson's are goin' well aye? Ye dinnae seem ta be havin' any trouble wit' all these people?"
[Meggan] "It's weird you know.... I've never had problems with crowds of people like this. Because none of them are feeling anything particularly strongly... well, except for the children that are bored and want to go home..." she giggled, "it's just when the emotions are stong that I struggle..."
[Meggan] "Unless... unless I need to know what I'm feeling. Then I can never tell... not until Xavier blocked my empathy. That's how I knew how I felt about Pietro... I didn't like it being blocked though..." she frowned, smushing some of her baked potato with her fork, "I dunno, I'll get used to it..."
[Rahne] Rahne chewed thoughtfully on a lettuce leaf "Ye know ... I'm sorta an' empath I guess. When I'm wolfy I can smell people's 'motions an' tha 'ffect m' if tha really stron' ye know? Somethin' ta do wit'" she frowned as she tried to remember the word "ferry-moans?"
[Rahne] "Bu' o'course ... it's nae as bad as ye's i'm sure." Rahne shrugged and shoveled the tuna into her mouth.
[Meggan] Meggan munched a couple of fork-fulls of potato before she replied, "I just... I wish there was a way to separate my feelings from everyone elses... without having to shield. I can cope with the emptiness of shielding but I really shouldn't go through life not knowing how I feel..." she sighed,
[Meggan] "Xavier's been giving me personal lessons every day. Says he'll block my empathy again if I miss one..."
[Rahne] Rahne blinked "Tha's kinna harsh ain't it?" Blocking powers? I didn't know they could block people's powers ... Rahne shuddered, she didn't like the idea of loosing the wolf, no matter how much it may scare her sometimes.
[Rahne] "Dinnae wha I'd d' wit' out tha wolfy ... feel like i'd lost a limb ..."
[Meggan] "I don't think he can block physical mutations so you've nothing to worry about... and yours is doing no harm..." she frowned in thought, "He says I have to learn to shield... but I really don't want to. I know why I should but it seems a waste of time because I know I won't use it..."
[Rahne] Rahne frowned thoughtfully "Why din ye wanna shield? I thought shieldin' was a good thin'?"
[Meggan] Meggan shook her head, "I don't like it... I've been like this since I was born - able to feel everything... turning it all off doesn't feel right. I just don't like it..."
[Meggan] "It's not.... not natural... and I hate that I'm being forced into doing this..."
[Rahne] Rahne pulled a face and picked at her salad "Well ... if I tell ye s'methin' ... promise nae ta tell nae'one, even Pietro?"
[Meggan] Meggan looked across at her, confused, "Um... ok?"
[Rahne] "Ye know wha feels natural fer me?" Rahne looked into the distance "Killin' ... tha hunt ... sex ta, sex wit' ... well" she grimanced, she couldn't believe she was saying this "I mean ... 'least ye know ye feelin's now ... mine're jus' 'trolled by m' instincts."
[Rahne] "I mean ..." she waved her fork in the air as she tried to explain "Anythin' tha get's m' hackles up, first instinct is ta pounce, fight ye know ... I hafta fight 'gainst it ... an' ... I ... I love Vic an' I care 'bout Remy ..."
[Rahne] She looked down sadly "Bu' I dinnae how much o' tha is jus' commin' from tha wolfy wantin' me ta 'mate wit' tha alpha'."
[Rahne] She looked up and gave Meggan a sad smile "Guess wha' I'm tryin' ta say is tha 'natural' ain't always tha bes' thin' ... aye?"
[Meggan] Meggan reached across the table and gave Rahne's hand a squeeze, "Never doubt yourself Rahne. Never doubt your feelings. Whether they come from your human side or your wolf they're still yours and no one else's. You love Vic and Remy and that's what matters, the why doesn't figure..."
[Meggan] "Love never makes sense, it's not supposed to, right? It's an emotion and I know for a fact they're damned unpredictable. I have instincts too - and they scare me because I can be very dangerous if I want to be. Lately I've been losing my temper a lot and I'm terrified I'll hurt someone..."
[Meggan] "But that fear is reassurring. It means that I still have control. The very fact you fight against the wolf's natural instinct proves how srong you are, how human you are Rahne." she smiled slightly, "And sometimes.... even humans make mistakes..."
[Rahne] Rahne sighed and shook her head, Meggan wasn't getting it "Than' ye Meggan, bu' tha was nae tha point I was tryin' ta make."
[Rahne] She thought for a moment "Say ... say ye dinnae learn ta shield properly ... ye love Pietro aye? Well ... wha happened if s'meone else c'mes 'lon' an' they really, really like ye an' like ... lust after ye' .."
[Rahne] "An' they fin' out 'bout tha empathy an' ... use it ta get ye ... like project tha feelin's o' lust at ye an' make ye thin' tha ye wan' it ta ...?"
[Meggan] Meggan put her fork down and stared out of the window, she didn't wnat to think about that. She didn't want to think people could be that cruel... but lately.... "I don't know, Rahne... I guess I would just have to hope my love for Pietro is strong enough..." she sighed, "I know why I should..."
[Meggan] "I know all the reasons shielding is a good thing.... I just... I can't cope... it doesn't feel right...." she bowed her head, "And I hate that I'm so weak that I'm afraid to do it... but I really don't know if I could handle it... especially not right now..."
[Rahne] Rahne twisted her napkin in her hand "Well ... I dinnae, can ye jus' learn ta block out human feelin's an' stuff? It's tha human's tha cause o' this trouble aye?"
[Meggan] Meggan looked at her again, it was the humans that caused all the trouble... "I hope so...." she sighed, "But I think Xavier would rather I blocked it all... he doesn't seem the 'half-measures' type..."
[Meggan] "Why is life so complicated? It looked so much simpler on tv... "
[Rahne] Rahne frowned ... she was pretty sure she remembered something about this on Remy's myspace "Mebby ye coul' try an learn ... layered shieldin'? I saw Lizzie talkin' 'bout it on myspace, mebby that'd work fer ya?"
[Rahne] Rahne snorted "Nae'er was one fer TV m'sel' ..." she finished off her salad and pushed the bowl away.
[Meggan] "For 15 years tv was all I had... I was locked in a caravan all my life... it's why all this is so difficult. Never been around people much..." she'd lost her appetite, so she just took another sip of water, "As for the 'layered' stuff... that sounds complicated..."
[Meggan] she didn't even had a proper grasp of the normal kind yet, anything else seemed beyond her...
[Rahne] Rahne shrugged "I didnae even have tha, jus' me an' m' Nana an' tha mountains."
[Rahne] "She wanted ta hide m' fr'm tha worl', keep m' safe ... guess it backfired a wee bit." Rahne sighed "Bu' ... if normal shieldin's so hard fer ye ... why nae try fer tha layered kind? If it gets ye where y wan' why nae?"
[Rahne] "Willnae kill ye aye? Even if it is hard work, 'troll ain't easy an' I shoul' know," she smiled mirthlessly "Took a bullet in tha back o' m' leg ta teach me tha lesson. Ye'd bes' jus' hope it disnae take tha same sorta shock ta teach ye tha too."
[Rahne] Rahne blinked and looked slightly abashed "Sorry, dinnae mean ta scare ye," she muttered, looking away.
[Meggan] Meggan smiled, "It's ok Rahne... and I think I've had enough scares to teach me anyway.... I just... I dunno... I guess I'm comforted by my empathy - lets me know I'm not alone anymore..."
[Meggan] "I'm so afraid of being alone...." she wasn't sure it was a good idea to tell Rahne but it was about time someone knew... someone who was still at the school, "My parents were going to leave me all alone when I was 15... to fend for myself. Just going to abandon me in that caravan..."
[Meggan] "Had no food, no money... was in the middle of nowhere... Rahne I'm so scared I'm gonna do something that'll make everyone else want to leave me too... I did do something - look at what I did to Alex... it's my fault - everyone says it is..."
[Rahne] Rahne blinked, she'd had no idea, she took Meggan's hand and gave it a squeeze "I didnae know ..." she sighed. "Meggan ... ye nae 'lone, ye've got Pietro an' me at least ... an' I'm sure once Alex gets back everythin'll be 'kay" I hope.
[Rahne] "I ... I know what it's like ta loose people, ta loose frien's, it's ... it's horrible ... bu' ..." she trailed off, she didn't have any idea what the hell she was trying to say.
[Rahne] But some people are just ment to loose friends? No! No thinking like that, remember those exercises that Dr. Guan gave you.
[Rahne] Rahne took a deep breath and smiled at Meggan "It'll all work out fine, ye'll see." She stood up and touched her nose ring, it was starting to ache a little bit "I thin' we need ta do s'me more shoppin' ... this day ain't fer stressin' 'bout aye? It's fer havin' fun wit' frien's ... well frien'."
[Meggan] Meggan got up and went round the table to give Rahne a hug - having to half sit in her lap so as to not offend anyone in the cafe with her ass in the air. "Thanks Rahne, you're a really good friend. I mean it. You are." she smiled, "And more shopping sounds like a great idea!"
[Meggan] She intended to make Pietro a shirt for Christmas and she#d be damned if she was going back without fabric.
[Rahne] Rahne smiled and hugged Meggan back "S're ye Meggan ... heh, we can be socially-awkward outcasts tagether aye?" She winked at her friend and patted her on the head.
[Meggan] Meggan giggled, "Yeah, us crazy people should stick together," she grinned and got up to gather her belongings and pull on her coat. She didn't need a coat but it was nearly freezing and she'd look strange if she didn't wear one.
[Meggan] "Lets go back to that fabric store... you can pick out some you like and I'll make you a skirt too." Well, talking about things had really helped. She felt much lighter now, maybe things would be ok...
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Well, that will be an interesting view: a pierced wolf
Nice bonding, Meggie needs friends now.
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Nice bonding, Meggie needs friends now.
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Meggie's friends are all leaving her! Alex ran away, Remy and Rahne have buggered off and Paie and Eve aren't talking to her. Poor Meggie. I only hope Peeto can cope with picking up the slack.
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Hey, Rahne is comming back she's only gone for a few days, she just felt like being dramaticOriginally posted by Svartfreja
Meggie's friends are all leaving her! Alex ran away, Remy and Rahne have buggered off and Paie and Eve aren't talking to her. Poor Meggie. I only hope Peeto can cope with picking up the slack.
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